First month at home after second surgery

Hi again,
Well the big difference this time was that I noticed I was in less pain than the first time around even though it was still pretty bad. Something that was interesting was that I had quite an appetite despite still dealing with throwing up. Everything I ate tasted so so good! I have a theory that it was because of being subjected to the hospital food again. lol Whoever makes the food knows how to make it look appetizing but it never tasted quite as good as it looked. I remember I had some Kraft Dinner shortly after coming home and it tasted so good that I made myself an entire pot and ate it within the next couple days. Also I had a thing for grilled cheese sandwiches as well which I ate a lot of in the first week at home.
Something quite positive for me was finding out that I qualified for financial assistance from the provincial government and I could actually go to the dentist and eye doctor which I was not able to afford before this. I desperately needed to visit the dentist but I didn't have the money. The only hard part was asking for it because I felt so bad asking for this money and actually got pretty depressed about it. I felt I had gotten to a really low point that I needed to ask for this kind of help. What I learned though is that it is not something to be ashamed of. It has helped me so much and lifted one more thing off my shoulders that I felt was weighing me down. I didn't have to worry about how to pay for the stuff I needed any more. I still couldn't afford any wants-just needs but that totally didn't matter. I could take care of getting my cavities fixed without worrying about the money part of it and that was amazing to me.
Another difference between this surgery and the first surgery was that there was less swelling on my back and I could sleep through the night without waking up every few hrs in so much pain that I needed to take more pain killers. That was quite nice. I still had a lot of trouble getting around and needed my family's help. Something very much the same was that I had to get my muscles to stretch so I could reach the ground again but it was easier this time around. I think it took about a month to manage to be able to get down on the floor on my knees. Though pushing myself up was a little more difficult. I still had a few times I got down on the floor and couldn't get back up! That is what is so great about my family being around-when I got myself in these predicaments, I had someone to help me out. lol I can't say enough how grateful I am to my family for being there for me to help me through all of this. It is definitely not something I could have gotten through without their help. I completely didn't think about all the little things I would need help with before all of this-for example opening and closing a window was a definite challenge. I remember one night I had my window open and it got cold in my room but I had to leave it open because I simply couldn't get it closed and I didn't want to wake anybody up. I quickly learned to have it closed before people went to bed! lol Of course I have to admit I tried to close it myself but I just didn't have enough strength and ended up hurting myself. I really realized how many little every day things require our muscles and how I really did take that for granted before.