New Years Day 2009

Hi again,

New Year's Day, a brand New year! Every year at this time I look ahead and wonder what the year will be like and where I will be sitting a year from that point. My thoughts for this year are that it will be a good year. For the first time in a couple years I am not waiting for any surgery of any kind! For the first time I am facing recovery instead of just trying to get through the year without getting any worse. This is the first year in a long time I am headed upwards towards getting healthy instead of downwards or staying the same. I can almost dedicate this year to getting my life back on track and hopefully look for a job at some point which is something I have wanted to do for a long time. Ever since 2004 when I had to quit my job because I was no longer able to work, I have longed for the day I could work again. I feel that there is more certainty for 2009 that I will get through this stuff finally and be able to live my life to the fullest I possibly can. I am almost putting a lot of expectations on this year but I hope to fulfill them. I need to also mention I don't normally make New Year's resolutions because I find that making resolutions once a year is a bad way to go. Though I guess this year is going slightly differently and I have made a few year long resolutions. I prefer to make monthly goals so that if I fail, I don't feel that the rest of the year is toast. Setting monthly goals is a good way to go because on the first day of every month I re evaluate and and set new goals for the month ahead. I find focusing on what I want to accomplish in each month vs each year is better because then I make smaller more attainable goals and I am not so overwhelmed. For the past couple yrs each month was basically just get myself through to next month, stay positive,which books I planned to read and then after surgery I tried to continue to recover from surgery and not get worse instead of better. Finally I should be able to start making some more substantial goals which is really exciting. I still wonder what this year will bring though.